It is here

You know it's ramadhan when you wake up totally early in the morning.

You know it's ramadhan when your friends ask each other, at school, 

" Sahur pagi tadi makan apa ha ? "

and then you guys all moan together " Man, that sound delicious thanks to you! " ><

:) 

Have a wonderful barakah month ahead!

HAPPY FASTING GUYS!

Hate

Hating someone is not something you could choose.

" Oooh i want to hate that person. Ok gonna hate her/him"

It's something that comes to you just like that without even being informed.
You just hate him/her naturally.

I'm someone who can clearly hate/ dislike someone whether it is because of her/his attitude or
he/his you-did-something-to-me thingy.

 I know. I should not hate someone just because.
But sometimes,
When i meet this someone, for the first time,
deep in my heart, while everyone else is happy for the new kid or wtv,
I'll be telling myself,
" She/He is so gonna find problem with you. She/he is gonna do something that will ruin your life"

LOL.

I know it's weird. But, until now, my feelings are kinda right.
I've met this one girl that when i saw her, i literally knew something will go wrong.

I KNOW. I KNOW THAT FIRST IMPRESSION IS CRUCIAL. YOU MUST NOT JUDGE SOMEONE AT YOUR FIRST MEET. BUT I JUST CAN'T.
My hearts just  seems to know something.  

I'm trying to be close with her. Because whether i like it or not, I need to.
I feel sinful for hating her. Yet, i can't treat her the way i treat my other friends.
Huhu

Everyone likes her. On the other hand, i am not so keen of her.
I just can't // -__-\\

Dear you,
Sorry but deep down, i still can't forget what you did to my friendship.
Literally, my life.
But thank you for making me wake up and grow.

Alhamdulillah though for everything that happens.
I just need to calm down and fix my emotion.

WOW, that's a relieve.
it's like ice-- melting.
:)

I have learned, I am learning, I will learn

People come and go don't they?
And sometimes they go without saying a proper goodbye.


I learned earlier this week, that your friend won't be with you forever.
In this case, move somewhere else. Not die. But, still, it could be a reason.


And because of that, you have to be prepared for the worst.
My story is really complicated.
I have really really great friends. They are outstanding, smart, active in Co-curricular activities  and the list goes on.
And me, on the other hand, is a shy insecure girl I guess?
Why so negative huh ?


This year, well literally, these two months, I received a bunch of responsibility.
Prefect candidate and a Naqibah -- which is something so complicated to explain if you don't know what usrah is.


And my particular friend, who is now in a different school, is doing the same thing as me.
A prefect candidate and my co-naqibah mate.


I was quite excited to do these 'jobs' because I knew I have a  friend to do it with.
I felt that I am not alone doing of those things.


But now, it is totally different.
I'm not really doing all of these stuff  ALONE,
but my partner-in-crime, my buddy, my bestest friend has left me.
Buhoo.
How sad is that. Pfffft


And I am still shocked actually.


But wake up Me!
She's not always going to be around you. She has her own life ok ?
But Allah is.
Put trust in Allah.
He will help.
Okay? Now smile.
: )


Whatever it is, you gotta be strong girl!
Don't show your weakness.


Allah is with you.
He is testing you.
Put hope.


* np : More than fine - David Tobin *

That feeling . . .

That one feeling.
The feeling of loving someone -- family, friends, crush? Eh. Hahaha


But then, you feel like stabbing them, strangling them,
punching them on the face till their nose bleed,
bite their arm, kick them with the last step of stage 1 BASED,
put poison in their drinks, trip them over with your leg  sabotage their belongings
and. . .  and, the list goes on.


I have felt that feeling.
I am feeling it.
And I truly hate it.
Urgh.


But something realized me.
Be patient.


It's a test from Ar-Rahim.
Are you patient enough huh ?


Not only this kind of situation.
Others too.


Hating this person for no reason.
Not doing well in class.
People back-stabbing you.
Feeling not well.
How hard Add maths is.
Family problems.
Personal issues.
ETC.




I know. It's hard to be patient.
Plus, people around you aren't giving any support.
Saying,

" be patient, be patient ".

When they aren't in our shoes.
They aren't going through what you are going through.


. . .


I don't know. Even I am struggling  facing  my problems.
What a teenage life huh?


I just believe that,
Sabr is the key.


May Allah bless and ease us all : )

Running from reality?

It's those days when you feel like running away from everyone without telling them anything.
And letting them wonder where you went and see whether they care or not.




It's one of those days, when you feel like you have done a big gigantic mistake of your life.
Sinful me.
But then, you do it again T.T




It is the days when you feel, " Oh no. I shouldn't have act that why. I shouldn't told her that" right after you finished your conversation  with your friend.




It's one of those days when you feel, you have made the wrong decision.
Science vs Arts.
When actually, you know what you want from the beginning.




It's one of the days, that made you realize,
yes, it is the time to change.
Change every bad aspect of your life.


It's the day you want to run from reality for a second and keep calm.
Just for a while.






P/S : Feeling not right? feeling bad? Pray. Pray to Allah.
Indeed, with remembering Him, you will feel serenity  :)

Student.

This is my current life as a student.

Watching drama and getting updates with my gal on social network.
XD

Wonderful right?
For the time being, it is. I've got another week before my actual first day of school.
And I'm wondering, what shall I do? :/
Indeed, this is the right time to get close with your creator isn't it ?
So lets do that, and of course enjoy a little bit.

Because, my friend said, life as a upper-secondary school student is different.
So, better get ready for that.
Mentally and physically.

We can do this! I can do this! Fighting >.<